baby steps

ive decided to make some subtle changes so that i can find the love of my life, one of them being the simple act of softening my face. i am sooo ny – i won (hands down) best ny screw face ever. i live not to attract the crazies, beggers and complete fools. the unfortunate side effect is that im not attractin any potential loves.. im a work in progress.
stage 2 is to begin flirting with the dudes who are soo wowed by my now plesant face.
baby steps

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what do i have to do to get you to buy my album

k.. today was the most monumental (according to me of course) howard stern show ever. im serious. his guest (that kinda made me late for work) was the wonderful Steveland Wonder. i luvs me some stevie (quick: favorite stevie song? Ans: 'As') anyway, I was shocked to hear him on Howard. Almost everyone in the room was trippin. Howard was geekin out for real. Artie could care less, I get the feelin that he really doesnt know a thing about Motown. Stevie had us laughin, sang with Howard, sang with Robin, sang with a show-boating caller, named a his kids, talked a bit about the multiple marriages and avoided the sex questions. He handled the show really well. Until he jumped the shark- he built up a caller for Howard who really was one of his friends that really wasnt funny. It was a really good segment - but it was time for Stevie to go right before the phone call and after the last song. Funny, was Little Stevie goin to all markets like Mr. Wonder is now? Have times really changed?

ddddddd---feated

every once and awhile new york, life, of maybe just the day can really be hard. Times when you're tired just from being tired. last night i tried to catch a show at S.O.B's - Leela James. It would have been cool, she's a bomb @ss performer. I left class, took the train and got to the venue. The show is sold out. I forgot to mention that I was having major issues with a "unreadable" $24 unlimited MetroCard all day. So this was like the icing. I was a little upset but not too upset to find food. So a friend and I started out on the adventure of finding food. The adventure took us in a full circle to a place that we passed in the beginning of the adventure. It was a really good mexican spot. Low and behold- you never know who you find in the cut. Why is it that when you run in to a guy friend that you haven't seen in a long time - his date is not is not as happy to see you? My guy friend looked like he was on a first date.. his date was not very excited that we were close. I hate when chicks do that .. .why not fake it like your comfortable in your own skin. After the food and the drinks.. I forgot all about the defeated feeling that I was feeling earlier. I really think about the good meal and great company and learn to appreciate the good with the bad.

its my blog and im gonna pout if i want to

so im in strong luv with radioblog. but then again i hate it.. i tried to do my dj thing and add the radioblog on this blog (I was gonna create this lovely environment with musical selections (of my taste) that the whole world could enjoy). it just didnt work. so i just walked away from this blog for a few days hopin that it would just fix itself. i think that worked (i'm brilliant!). the hole for the radioblog no longer appears here. i may revisit the whole thing on another occasion. i could ask somebody to help me, but i don't do the damsel in distress very well.
so when im not busy trippin over my lips..ill be back.

just doin me 

the men i dated (in no particular order)

aka stuff i had to deal with as a single chick

1) mr. keyser soze - boy was he soo nice when he wooed me into dating him. i didn't notice him when we first met but ah! we end up on a 'blind date' set up by a mutual friend (surprisingly she's still my friend). all gentleman like he asked for a kiss( as opposed to goin in for an attack). so i fell (rather clumsily) hard. we dated for a period of time. of course there were signs that things really weren't what i had in mind (or what i particularly desired). i expected a one on one relationship. he was discovered coming from a jazz club with a female friend about 3mos into our 'relationship'. so thus began a ménage a trios that i didn’t even get to enjoy. so just like in the movies.. he totally was full of surprises and not who he initially presented himself to be.

2) mr. im too sexy- another set up (what is up with my friends??) anyway, dude was cute-- looked a lot like nas in his good days. we had dinner in the village, he flirted with other chicks while we were on the date. our dinner conversation went a little like this - him: you know i have a kid right? me: naw... i didnt see that in your face.

3) mr. blunt- always had an opinion (i walked into this one on my own). he had his say when i asked, when i didnt ask, was quite crass... and sickening. Silence is Golden.

4) mr. crazy -oh this dude had all the right things to say, was really sweet, on Monday. Then on Tuesday when I cancelled dinner plans.. went straight crazy. I swear I met him like that Sunday.

5) mr. needy- cute as hell but expected a domicile little woman. note sure where he got that impression. anyway, i played along just to see what would happen. low and behold he started asking for me to send gifts to his sister's kids who were in the Caribbean. oh yeah, while he was here in the states, he stood me up on a park date. Dude was unemployed. what in the world?

There are other dudes, im sure that for reason or another they have been blocked out of my mind.

books im reading now

• quick review ...
  the professor's daughter by emily raboteau
  oh my, what a read. sensitive, funny its all about good writing.
• the perfect manhattan
  quick read, cute stories told between bartending gigs
• Playing with boys by Alisa Valdes-Rodriguez
  the latin gurl in all of us, woman who are talented, smart and successfyl, taking chances on love and life. could not put it down
• Naked by Ayana Byrd -collection of essays on woman and body image
• High Maintence by J. Belle - very interesting story about a chick and her "struggle" in the city. (i can relate)

is it just me or is this the worst car ever?

oh my its been so long since i posted.. yada, yada, yada anyway, just had the best dinner and dessert at highline in the meatpacking district. Caught the A home.. i needed the last car for my uptown destination. so got in a car... my friend (who happens to have a busted knee) made it to a seat. what do we hear is a "Ugh,, sigh!" from a woman with a cane. sounds to me like she was really disgusted that my friend took the seat. even though there was a seat across from us.. my friend go up for the young woman with a cane and red tights (its relevant because i say so). so of course i say to my friend, "good thing you got up, im not sure if she could have made more noise for the seat". the young woman with the cane and red tights said to me, "i am in pain and i couldn't make it". my friend with the busted knee let her know that she understood b/c she had a busted knee herself. not so important to someone who has a seat, hmm? anyway... we made it to some other seats that opened up down the way. bad move.. there was an loud, obnoxious dude just makin inappropriate comments and noise. he had a side kick that we messed with by telling him that we never heard of dave chappelle..why did he believe us? anyway.. that was the worst car ever. outside of the bomb threats on the subway today.. this seemed like a typical new york day.